Sunday, November 12, 2006
Wow I'm blogging again. PFft. I'm suddenly really nostalgic. And too many thoughts were in my head. Goodness I knew this blog was worth something. Haha.
2nd sem of my college sophomore year starts tomorrow and I'm not quite ready yet. Oh, and I just got on the Dean's List! Haha. Should be proud of myself, i suppose. Haha. Oh well. Wait the thoughts are gone I must go. PFft. Wish me luck.
2nd sem of my college sophomore year starts tomorrow and I'm not quite ready yet. Oh, and I just got on the Dean's List! Haha. Should be proud of myself, i suppose. Haha. Oh well. Wait the thoughts are gone I must go. PFft. Wish me luck.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
11/12/2006 09:37:00 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
I can't breathe unless you do this with me.
Oh God. I swear everything's just falling falling falling. Fuck.
Why am I this angry? This frustrated? Cause I hate being disappointed.
I can't even get the words right. I don't think you understand how much this hurts. Normally when my self esteem goes running I have something to lean on.
I never felt like running away from anything. I've always felt like running to you. Yet sadly, not this time. I feel like leaving cause I have never felt this alone. The one emotion I have never been familiar with, and the one emotion I feared the most.
You really are stronger without me than I am without you.
But what's worse it that having all this anger towards you still makes me think of how much I must be hurting you. WHY. Sometimes I just really wanna think about myself. But more often I wish you'd think about me the way I do about you.
I know this'll pass, i'm just waiting. Waiting. Waiting for.
Ever.
Oh God. I swear everything's just falling falling falling. Fuck.
Why am I this angry? This frustrated? Cause I hate being disappointed.
I can't even get the words right. I don't think you understand how much this hurts. Normally when my self esteem goes running I have something to lean on.
I never felt like running away from anything. I've always felt like running to you. Yet sadly, not this time. I feel like leaving cause I have never felt this alone. The one emotion I have never been familiar with, and the one emotion I feared the most.
You really are stronger without me than I am without you.
But what's worse it that having all this anger towards you still makes me think of how much I must be hurting you. WHY. Sometimes I just really wanna think about myself. But more often I wish you'd think about me the way I do about you.
I know this'll pass, i'm just waiting. Waiting. Waiting for.
Ever.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
8/20/2006 08:18:00 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Oh and here I am again. I'm supposed to be somewhere right now but friggin thingssss, man. Friggin things. Oh well.
I just realized that I've been living in a bubble. I mean, everything I think about or consider is so limited now. And everything involves me directly. Rar.
I just realized that I've been living in a bubble. I mean, everything I think about or consider is so limited now. And everything involves me directly. Rar.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
8/09/2006 05:46:00 PM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Okay. Once again I start writing. I used to have a running commentary about everything and anything within the depths of my semi-functional mind. Yet somewhere amidst school, alcohol, stress and whatnot, I guess I kinda lost that voice. And recently, I've been trying to get that voice back. I realized that I write most sensibly when I'm depressed. So why not write now?
See, we had an assignment for Communications, which was to make a collage of how you see yourself and how others see you. I hate thinking about who and what I really am. I don't know why, but when I look at myself I see fear and confusion. Everything's a riot inside me. Not most people know this, I suppose. Rar. I need a magic mirror to tell me I'm the fairest one of all once in a while. My self-esteem's not too high, see. And that's a little secret I've been trying to get over. Hah. Not much of a secret anymore, though. Pfft.
This week's been a blur. Everyone's down, depressed, and every other synonym of the word sad. Good God, what's happening? I need a break.
*So look around your world pretty baby. Is it everything you hoped it would be?
Rar. Roll with me here. Roll.
Once again I'm down down down, unwell.
If it were up to me, my life would be a colorful, funny sitcom-like cartoon with laughter at every punchline. But right now my life's like a black and white movie with "Raindrops keep falling on my head" playing over and over. And over. Where is the end?
Anyway, I must go while I can. All this writing is making me think too much. And thinking's not what I do best. Not right now, at least.
See, we had an assignment for Communications, which was to make a collage of how you see yourself and how others see you. I hate thinking about who and what I really am. I don't know why, but when I look at myself I see fear and confusion. Everything's a riot inside me. Not most people know this, I suppose. Rar. I need a magic mirror to tell me I'm the fairest one of all once in a while. My self-esteem's not too high, see. And that's a little secret I've been trying to get over. Hah. Not much of a secret anymore, though. Pfft.
This week's been a blur. Everyone's down, depressed, and every other synonym of the word sad. Good God, what's happening? I need a break.
*So look around your world pretty baby. Is it everything you hoped it would be?
Rar. Roll with me here. Roll.
Once again I'm down down down, unwell.
If it were up to me, my life would be a colorful, funny sitcom-like cartoon with laughter at every punchline. But right now my life's like a black and white movie with "Raindrops keep falling on my head" playing over and over. And over. Where is the end?
Anyway, I must go while I can. All this writing is making me think too much. And thinking's not what I do best. Not right now, at least.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
8/03/2006 07:30:00 PM
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Waaaah, vacation has barely started and already, I'm dying of boredom. Hah. It's weird, actually. Just when I have all the liberty to go out, have fun, waste away and well, be a teenager, I don't find it in me to be excited. Gahhh. I don't wanna grow up just yet.
I'm done with my College Freshman year, whoooo gosh. It's not really sinking in yet, I haven't really taken time to think too much about it. Anyway, I've been having a hard time trying to accept things nowadays.
It's so difficult to get attached, see. Especially for me. I've spent a lot of time moving from place to place, from group to group, that attachment to things or people other than my family has been difficult. I'm starting to miss High School. Well, not ALL of it, but most of it. Especially a few significant things about it, but let's not get into that.
So there. I'm not the least bit sleepy and this blog has been dying.
Ugh.
I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one who knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping
-Santana feat. Steven Tyler, Just Feel Better
...Yes, but that was before. Yeaahhh, "Damn Santana!" Right now, I don't really think anyone's aware of anything that involves me. Pfft. But then again that just may be what I need precisely, for them to ignore.
Yikes.
Love is a kiss good night.
Suddenly all the sappy love songs make sense. Suddently the rest of the world is blanketed by a shadow. Suddenly the moon's not enough company on a sad, lonely night. Suddenly puffy eyes and a swollen nose are nothing out of the ordinary. Suddenly a smile overpowers the brighterst star. Suddenly closing your eyes doesn't mean darkness. Suddenly fear is drowned by all the courage in the world.
Suddenly, all because of a kiss good night.
I'm done with my College Freshman year, whoooo gosh. It's not really sinking in yet, I haven't really taken time to think too much about it. Anyway, I've been having a hard time trying to accept things nowadays.
It's so difficult to get attached, see. Especially for me. I've spent a lot of time moving from place to place, from group to group, that attachment to things or people other than my family has been difficult. I'm starting to miss High School. Well, not ALL of it, but most of it. Especially a few significant things about it, but let's not get into that.
So there. I'm not the least bit sleepy and this blog has been dying.
Ugh.
I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one who knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping
-Santana feat. Steven Tyler, Just Feel Better
...Yes, but that was before. Yeaahhh, "Damn Santana!" Right now, I don't really think anyone's aware of anything that involves me. Pfft. But then again that just may be what I need precisely, for them to ignore.
Yikes.
Love is a kiss good night.
Suddenly all the sappy love songs make sense. Suddently the rest of the world is blanketed by a shadow. Suddenly the moon's not enough company on a sad, lonely night. Suddenly puffy eyes and a swollen nose are nothing out of the ordinary. Suddenly a smile overpowers the brighterst star. Suddenly closing your eyes doesn't mean darkness. Suddenly fear is drowned by all the courage in the world.
Suddenly, all because of a kiss good night.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
3/25/2006 12:28:00 AM
Thursday, March 16, 2006
You have flashes of brilliance.
Woke up early today. Went to my first class and semi-convinced my teacher in ES to exempt me from the finals. And then, after lunch was math. I got my last long test back. PERFECT. Hah, first time. Oh yay, holy day!
Woke up early today. Went to my first class and semi-convinced my teacher in ES to exempt me from the finals. And then, after lunch was math. I got my last long test back. PERFECT. Hah, first time. Oh yay, holy day!
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
3/16/2006 06:29:00 PM
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Dammit. I can't get myself to think. I have nothing to write about, really. Rawr.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
3/09/2006 10:38:00 PM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
I thought I could ignore today but then again the task prove to be impossible. People were either celebrating the day or bitching about it. And just for the record, I didn't want to be in any of the two groups.
Why was it inevitable to ignore this so-called holiday? Well, mainly because of the many Valentines that I have surrounding me.
My lovely thugs sent the usual LM-but-it's-okay-i-have-you messages, which never fail to make me smile.
Nina and I were supposed to go on a date, but family stuff got in the way. So we're celebrating some other time. Haha.
Aggie was well, Aggie today. She's been my Valentine for 16 years now, and heck it's been all good.
And see, the two people I hang out with the most at school both have "Others". I spent basically the whole day with them, listening to the giddy stories. When I got home, a boquet of red flowers sat atop my study table with a note that says
For Inna,
..........just to make you smile for now... you know what, We bet it's gonna be well worth the wait :D
Another flower was waiting for me from my Kuya, the sweetest guy I know.
Anyway, these simple things made my day. Haha. With people like these surrounding me, i'm sure waiting won't be too much of a burden.
Why was it inevitable to ignore this so-called holiday? Well, mainly because of the many Valentines that I have surrounding me.
My lovely thugs sent the usual LM-but-it's-okay-i-have-you messages, which never fail to make me smile.
Nina and I were supposed to go on a date, but family stuff got in the way. So we're celebrating some other time. Haha.
Aggie was well, Aggie today. She's been my Valentine for 16 years now, and heck it's been all good.
And see, the two people I hang out with the most at school both have "Others". I spent basically the whole day with them, listening to the giddy stories. When I got home, a boquet of red flowers sat atop my study table with a note that says
For Inna,
..........just to make you smile for now... you know what, We bet it's gonna be well worth the wait :D
Another flower was waiting for me from my Kuya, the sweetest guy I know.
Anyway, these simple things made my day. Haha. With people like these surrounding me, i'm sure waiting won't be too much of a burden.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
2/14/2006 06:25:00 PM
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Okay, kill me for joining the bandwagon.But then again it really doesn't matter. The incident that happened last Saturday was just plain tragic. Really. It just goes to show how desperate people are in the Philippines. People go out of their provinces, camp out at the cold, hard concrete for days in order to give their luck a chance.
We can't dwell on trying to understand all the details and whatnot, though. Instead, we have to think about what this tragedy has brought upon the people. Filipinos should now work together in order to rise above the ranks, to give the masses the basic needs that poverty has stolen. I know these words are probably futile but seriously, can't this incident open the eyes of the government? Of those who have the power to actually do something? If I was deeply moved by the events, then why not our leaders who are inherently supposed to care, at the very least?
My father was once a government leader. I saw his burning passion for service, and I wanted to partake in his amazing dreams and beautiful vision. But yeah, all things come to an end. I'm not saying that my father lost his passion altogether. But after reality slaps you in the face, it's really hard to remain a believer. He quit politics several years ago, and not because of defeat nor resignation. It was out of hope and choice. No matter how much I try to convince myself that there are good people out there in the government, I know that the cynic in me will persevere, and in the long run, convince me otherwise.
Sheesh. I'm a 16 year old, who hasn't experienced half of what our leaders have. I'd like to see them remove their heads from the clouds and stoop to my level, in order to see beyond the borders that they've set for themselves.
We can't dwell on trying to understand all the details and whatnot, though. Instead, we have to think about what this tragedy has brought upon the people. Filipinos should now work together in order to rise above the ranks, to give the masses the basic needs that poverty has stolen. I know these words are probably futile but seriously, can't this incident open the eyes of the government? Of those who have the power to actually do something? If I was deeply moved by the events, then why not our leaders who are inherently supposed to care, at the very least?
My father was once a government leader. I saw his burning passion for service, and I wanted to partake in his amazing dreams and beautiful vision. But yeah, all things come to an end. I'm not saying that my father lost his passion altogether. But after reality slaps you in the face, it's really hard to remain a believer. He quit politics several years ago, and not because of defeat nor resignation. It was out of hope and choice. No matter how much I try to convince myself that there are good people out there in the government, I know that the cynic in me will persevere, and in the long run, convince me otherwise.
Sheesh. I'm a 16 year old, who hasn't experienced half of what our leaders have. I'd like to see them remove their heads from the clouds and stoop to my level, in order to see beyond the borders that they've set for themselves.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
2/07/2006 05:22:00 PM
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
There's this song, see... I've been hearing it over and over for more than 3 hours now and somewhow it's pushing me to blog. Sheesh. Anyway, it's actually quite amazing how people find songs that they can fully relate to. Makes you feel like there's someone out there who actually understands you. A bit soothing, yes, but futile nonetheless.
Being around guys and girls now, I kind of realized that at this age, everyone's looking for an "other". Haha, cheesy I know. But then again it's true. He has a crush on her, they're going out, she admires that boy right there, they just broke up, he asked his friend's ex out last night. And somehow, for reasons unknown to me, I don't find myself in any of those situations. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I honestly don't think I'm ready for the rigorous drama that complements a love life.
Anyway, enough of that. I've to go ask permission for the weekend now. Hay.
Being around guys and girls now, I kind of realized that at this age, everyone's looking for an "other". Haha, cheesy I know. But then again it's true. He has a crush on her, they're going out, she admires that boy right there, they just broke up, he asked his friend's ex out last night. And somehow, for reasons unknown to me, I don't find myself in any of those situations. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I honestly don't think I'm ready for the rigorous drama that complements a love life.
Anyway, enough of that. I've to go ask permission for the weekend now. Hay.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
1/31/2006 09:12:00 PM
Monday, January 30, 2006
Just when I thought things were finally looking up, something just had to fall down on me, hit me and crush me. Hay. Whoever said things could only get better? I'm sorry, but the optimist in me is nowhere to be found. Hard to explain. Shit.
Waaaaaaah. I. Hate. I. Want. To. Leave. And. Run. Off. To. A. Place. Far. Far. Away. I want pixie dust. Oh hey we have pixie sticks. But those suck, I'm not even allowed to eat them anymore. Sheesh. Stupid rules.
Waaaaaaah. I. Hate. I. Want. To. Leave. And. Run. Off. To. A. Place. Far. Far. Away. I want pixie dust. Oh hey we have pixie sticks. But those suck, I'm not even allowed to eat them anymore. Sheesh. Stupid rules.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
1/30/2006 06:20:00 PM
Friday, January 20, 2006
Last night's slumber was anything but sweet. It was one of those nights where you're in dire need of rest but you can't get yourself to sleep. The word uncofortable would basically epitomize the night I had. Pfft. I felt like I was in bed, just waiting for the sun to rise and for my alarm to go off.
Waah. Anyway, I've been having a really bad week. Seriously, all this stress is getting to me. I need time! But then again, don't we all?
Oh my, I can't believe I'm ranting about this. Teenage angst! I never thought I'd actually recognize it for myself, but whoot. Welcome to the world of blogs, teenage angst and emotions, ladies and gents.
Waah. Anyway, I've been having a really bad week. Seriously, all this stress is getting to me. I need time! But then again, don't we all?
Oh my, I can't believe I'm ranting about this. Teenage angst! I never thought I'd actually recognize it for myself, but whoot. Welcome to the world of blogs, teenage angst and emotions, ladies and gents.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
1/20/2006 10:18:00 AM
Friday, January 13, 2006
Why do I let you affect meee?
Aggie you suck. Hahahaha. FREAK.
Anyway, I feel better now. The long test went better than I expected. I got a perfect mark on my Calc quiz. Whoot. Finished my paper on Lit. Weee. Now I have to worry about my research paper. Gaaahhh!
I better get to bed. Breaaaaaathe Inna, breeeeeeaaaaaaaathe.
Aggie you suck. Hahahaha. FREAK.
Anyway, I feel better now. The long test went better than I expected. I got a perfect mark on my Calc quiz. Whoot. Finished my paper on Lit. Weee. Now I have to worry about my research paper. Gaaahhh!
I better get to bed. Breaaaaaathe Inna, breeeeeeaaaaaaaathe.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
1/13/2006 12:49:00 AM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Puch, I hate tonight. I hate myself, I hate this friggin teenage angst. I mean, really? Where does all this come from??? Holy mother of goodness gracious. I have a long test tomorrow, man!!! And I seriously know nothing. Damn it.
Can you feel my pain?
Where are the good people when you need them? I mean, really? Why are people ignored especially when they need attention? Crap, life really does have ironic ways of stabbing you in the back. You think you have just the right people in your life and just when you need them they're not there. Tousche.
AGH. No, no, it's not just anger you're witnessing here. It's resignation, fear and sadness. Yeah, I guess I give up. Rob Thomas save me!
Can you feel my pain?
Where are the good people when you need them? I mean, really? Why are people ignored especially when they need attention? Crap, life really does have ironic ways of stabbing you in the back. You think you have just the right people in your life and just when you need them they're not there. Tousche.
AGH. No, no, it's not just anger you're witnessing here. It's resignation, fear and sadness. Yeah, I guess I give up. Rob Thomas save me!
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
1/11/2006 11:35:00 PM
Ooookay. This may very well be a pathetic post, but oh well.
I'm starting to think that waiting just might be futile. I mean, i'm becoming cynical with regards to finding someone, finding the right guy. See, the processes of having to like someone, of someone liking you back, of falling in love and all that jazz are too eratic to even try to understand. They're all so different, variations I just can't seem to comprehend. I know I'm not making too much sense, but... Oh my. Bottom line is, waiting just might be futile - but in the long run it's all i can really do, it's all i really have. Goodness. Time. Time.
Anyway, a Long Test and a quiz on Calculus tom. Haaaay.
I really don't feel good about myself, and that sucks. Oh, and I'm hungry. WOW.
I'm starting to think that waiting just might be futile. I mean, i'm becoming cynical with regards to finding someone, finding the right guy. See, the processes of having to like someone, of someone liking you back, of falling in love and all that jazz are too eratic to even try to understand. They're all so different, variations I just can't seem to comprehend. I know I'm not making too much sense, but... Oh my. Bottom line is, waiting just might be futile - but in the long run it's all i can really do, it's all i really have. Goodness. Time. Time.
Anyway, a Long Test and a quiz on Calculus tom. Haaaay.
I really don't feel good about myself, and that sucks. Oh, and I'm hungry. WOW.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
1/11/2006 03:57:00 PM
Sunday, January 08, 2006
| Your 2005 Song Is |
 "Love forever love is free. Let's turn forever you and me." In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain. |
Feel Good Inc? "In 2005 you were loving life and feeling no pain." Hah. Niiice one. (Okay, Inna. Stop trying to convince yourself. Haha.)
Had a great time last night. Went to Tina's to celebrate her birthday then met up with Mike, Don, Sola, Cris and friends at Salcedo. Went to Alabang, got lost!!!! then finally found the RIGHT house with the blue lights. Picked Howie up, then went to the Baugli party. After about an hour there, we left na then stayed at Howie's place with the Book of Answers. Wahahaha.
So there. Left at about 2, went home na. We didn't meet Thugs at Ponti anymore cause we didn't ask permission. Haha. Whoot, last full show!!! Haha.
I have to start writing my papers soon. Or at least reseraching. Haha. Waaah.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TINA. I know you never read my blog, but who cares? Looove you to bits, you sexy piece of ass! Hahaha. Shit, how kinky. Love, love, love.
Wah, I miss my Numero.
Had a great time last night. Went to Tina's to celebrate her birthday then met up with Mike, Don, Sola, Cris and friends at Salcedo. Went to Alabang, got lost!!!! then finally found the RIGHT house with the blue lights. Picked Howie up, then went to the Baugli party. After about an hour there, we left na then stayed at Howie's place with the Book of Answers. Wahahaha.
So there. Left at about 2, went home na. We didn't meet Thugs at Ponti anymore cause we didn't ask permission. Haha. Whoot, last full show!!! Haha.
I have to start writing my papers soon. Or at least reseraching. Haha. Waaah.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TINA. I know you never read my blog, but who cares? Looove you to bits, you sexy piece of ass! Hahaha. Shit, how kinky. Love, love, love.
Wah, I miss my Numero.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
1/08/2006 12:16:00 PM
Saturday, January 07, 2006
She thinks that happiness has a map hat sits on her doorway.
Ugh. I went from feeling A-okay, to uh-huh okay, to bad, and now to really bad. Good gracious.
Went to Galle with Nikki, Eda and Aggie today. Then Aggie and I went to mass at the Gesu ( First Friday and Sacred Heart). I've been craving for pop corn the whole day. And... okay, nevermind I'm in no mood to narrate. Wah. See how crummy I feel?
Friends. Tss. What's worse than getting left behind? Punyeta. Breathe.
I need to feel good about myself. Rar.
Ugh. I went from feeling A-okay, to uh-huh okay, to bad, and now to really bad. Good gracious.
Went to Galle with Nikki, Eda and Aggie today. Then Aggie and I went to mass at the Gesu ( First Friday and Sacred Heart). I've been craving for pop corn the whole day. And... okay, nevermind I'm in no mood to narrate. Wah. See how crummy I feel?
Friends. Tss. What's worse than getting left behind? Punyeta. Breathe.
I need to feel good about myself. Rar.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
1/07/2006 12:53:00 AM
Monday, January 02, 2006
The Christmas season is coming to a close. Okay, I think it's over, even. So there.
MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST
Things people can concretely give me:
1. iPod Nano - My mom got me aa 60gig iPod video. Weeha.
2. Pretty white tote - Uh, my mom has one I've been using. Haha.
3. White/yellow clutch or purse - Uh, nope.
4. Tops for night outs (any color will do. Whites will greatly be appreciated! Haha.) - We got a new white top. Wee.
5. Plain brown/dark green/white tees - Ate Alu's giving me one of her new white tees. Aaand, Kuya Abel got me a new pink polo. Yeeha.
6. Yellow Nike jacket - Soon! Soon! Haha.
7. A new watch please - Nope.
8. A trip abroad - Went to Hong Kong.
9. New jeans - Nope.
10. Denim shorts - Nope.
11. A better looking keyboard - Unfortunately, no. But my mom says she's getting us a new pc. Hurrah to that!
12. Friends Dvds - Nope.
13. Disney Classic Dvds - Nope. But well I went to Disneyworld! Has to count for something. Haha.
14. A new (smaller) camera - Nope.
15. Good books! - Nope.
16. Cold hard cash! Haha. - Yeahh.
Things people cannot concretely give me:
1. Effin good grades - This I have to work on myself, I know.
2. Abs - Ditto.
3. Peace of mind
4. Determination (Really. This, I lack more than anything.)
5. Again, my parents' passion for service
6. Freedom from my insecurities
7. Again, writing skills please
8. Contenment. (Irony intended.)
So there. I have to start working on school stuff now. Waah.
Happy new year. :D
MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST
Things people can concretely give me:
1. iPod Nano - My mom got me aa 60gig iPod video. Weeha.
2. Pretty white tote - Uh, my mom has one I've been using. Haha.
3. White/yellow clutch or purse - Uh, nope.
4. Tops for night outs (any color will do. Whites will greatly be appreciated! Haha.) - We got a new white top. Wee.
5. Plain brown/dark green/white tees - Ate Alu's giving me one of her new white tees. Aaand, Kuya Abel got me a new pink polo. Yeeha.
6. Yellow Nike jacket - Soon! Soon! Haha.
7. A new watch please - Nope.
8. A trip abroad - Went to Hong Kong.
9. New jeans - Nope.
10. Denim shorts - Nope.
11. A better looking keyboard - Unfortunately, no. But my mom says she's getting us a new pc. Hurrah to that!
12. Friends Dvds - Nope.
13. Disney Classic Dvds - Nope. But well I went to Disneyworld! Has to count for something. Haha.
14. A new (smaller) camera - Nope.
15. Good books! - Nope.
16. Cold hard cash! Haha. - Yeahh.
Things people cannot concretely give me:
1. Effin good grades - This I have to work on myself, I know.
2. Abs - Ditto.
3. Peace of mind
4. Determination (Really. This, I lack more than anything.)
5. Again, my parents' passion for service
6. Freedom from my insecurities
7. Again, writing skills please
8. Contenment. (Irony intended.)
So there. I have to start working on school stuff now. Waah.
Happy new year. :D
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
1/02/2006 12:19:00 PM
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Oh my. I'm gaining so much weight, it's ridiculous. Waaaah. I wish I had the powers to resist food. Goodness gracious. Holidays = Pig out.
This Christmas was well, for the lack of a better word, different. Hard to explain. Yea, I guess Nina's greeting was correct. It's a cold Christmas. Literally and figuratively. Oh well. There's always next year.
Oh, I have found 3 new idols, and 1 new ultimate goal in life. My idols? Bono, Bill and Melinda Gates. My goal? To be a philantrophist. Oh yeahhh.
I'm starting to really believe that I'm losing what intellect I was initially given. REALLY. I'm beginning to do, say and act out really stupid things. I'm not exaggerating. Waah. My brain! Agh. And to think I have 3 papers, 2 research works and 1 long test to study for / work on over the break. God help me.
This Christmas was well, for the lack of a better word, different. Hard to explain. Yea, I guess Nina's greeting was correct. It's a cold Christmas. Literally and figuratively. Oh well. There's always next year.
Oh, I have found 3 new idols, and 1 new ultimate goal in life. My idols? Bono, Bill and Melinda Gates. My goal? To be a philantrophist. Oh yeahhh.
I'm starting to really believe that I'm losing what intellect I was initially given. REALLY. I'm beginning to do, say and act out really stupid things. I'm not exaggerating. Waah. My brain! Agh. And to think I have 3 papers, 2 research works and 1 long test to study for / work on over the break. God help me.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
12/28/2005 03:21:00 PM
Thursday, December 22, 2005
I don't want you anymore. You make me feel high. When I take you in my feet don't touch the ground. But when I close my eyes, I feel and then I fall. You make my head spin. My world is pixelaeted and everything feels numb. Food. Yeah. I just don't want any more of it.
i'm so far down, are you? *inna |
12/22/2005 08:07:00 PM